Thursday, October 25, 2012

Not Focused

This is why people go to college right after high school - BEFORE marriage, kids, and everything else! I'm supposed to be working on a paper that is 3 hours late and I am so not focused. I feel like I'm sinking. I have one semester left before finally completing my Associate's Degree, but I really don't know how I will make it through that! I'm pretty sure I am changing my major, but again, I don't know what I want to do next.
I'm really starting to feel, after 15 years of intermittently trying, that college may not be for me. I would feel so silly giving up after this, though. I think I actually want to become a teacher and I know I have to go a lot further in school for that. So much uncertainty right now. I'm working on increasing my discipline/self-control because I believe that's a large part of my issue. Do you have any idea how many posts I have saved as drafts for this blog? It's really ridiculous. I have started many posts about various topics that I want to discuss, but somehow didn't think I had the time to finish them. Mess. I have so much greatness in me. One of these days - soon - I will conquer all of these "inner demons" or whatever you want to call it, and I will truly be walking in the plan/purpose(s) that God has for my life.
I promise that!
For now, back to work/studying.

1 comment:

  1. Omg do not give up! Maybe you should plan for your papers by just planning to only write for 15 minutes everyday and that way its less of a chore and you can at least get the foundation if the paper down and you can just add the BS in at the last minute lol!

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